My YouTube Channel

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I posted a video from a TV show onto YouTube on my original channel called Xanapus several years ago and it went a little viral. When I say viral, I don’t mean it had millions of views, I mean it got about 20k views or so. Since then it has around 45k views. Anyway, when it had reached a certain number of views, YouTube handed me monetization on a silver platter. Wonderful, right? Well, today they took it away from me.

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So here’s the new rule. In order for me to be monetized, I need 1000 subscribers and I  need to have 4,000+ watch time minutes per month. Well, I have the minute views, I just need the subscribers. I currently have 548 subscribers (as of right this very second) and I am sure that number will grow, eventually, but I don’t think it will go up if I don’t beg people to subscribe to my YouTube channel, so here I am, on bended knee, but not really because I have bad knees lol, but you know what I mean.

By the way, I am not relying on monetization for an income, but it certainly doesn’t hurt to receive a check for $100 every now and then. I’m on a very limited income with Disability, and I was getting $100 every few years from YouTube, and it did help when I was getting them because then I could actually afford to buy groceries. I am not dying of hunger though, so don’t feel obligated, I’m just saying everything helps, you know what I mean?

I cannot make good quality videos with the equipment I have because all I have is my phone, which apparently takes horrible grainy video in my bedroom. I have acceptable lighting with my desk light and my craft light and I have a cell phone mount that attaches to my desk. I don’t have an acceptable space to film since the only place I can record is my bedroom on the edge of my bed. My life partner of almost 24 years doesn’t take my vlogging seriously. In fact, he looks at me like he’s about to 5150 me every time he sees me talking to the phone lol. He thinks it’s OK for other people, but not me, so I literally have to wait for him to get on the phone with someone, sleep, or leave to be able to film. We have a good relationship, he just doesn’t take anything I do seriously. He didn’t even want me to write or publish my book. Besides all that, I have a brand new computer, so editing video doesn’t take forever like it used to, but I am terrible at editing and the video is still grainy from the phone, so my bad editing is another reason I have terrible videos.

All that said, I still ask that people subscribe to my boring bad quality, no good editing and no effects channel lol.

PLEASE SUBSCRIBE LOL.

Here’s my channel. www.YouTube.com/DiaryofaGayNerd. Thank you for your time and thank you for subscribing.

UPDATE: I have to make an update here because I do believe I have misunderstood the terms of monetization. Here is an email I received from YouTube explaining to me what criteria I must meet to be eligible.

As of today, your channel, Diary of a Gay Nerd will no longer have access to monetization tools associated with YPP because it doesn’t meet the new threshold of 4,000 hours of watch time within the past 12 months and 1,000 subscribers. If you meet the new threshold at some point in the future, you’ll be automatically re-evaluated for YPP. The reviews typically take 1-2 weeks.

So when I originally read the requirements, I wasn’t paying attention to the word hours, I thought it said minutes, and I assumed that because when I looked at the stats (screenshot from above) it shows minutes. When I saw the email today, I saw that it said hours and it gave me a little more of an understanding.

Here is a screenshot of the last years worth of views, and again, it only shows minutes, it doesn’t show hours.

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I Googled how many hours is 54,894 minutes and the answer is 914.9 hours. So… I do not in fact meet the hours requirements. I bet if I had more videos (I currently have 97) and if I had more followers, those yearly watch time hours will rise to meet the requirement.

Again, not in any hurry. I’m not desperate, so no big deal.

Antigay pastor and wife arrested after he’s busted for luring kids with candy then molesting them

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I saw this article on Queerty and shared it on my Facebook page and I wanted to talk about what the F is wrong with the story. Here is a quote that basically outlines the story.

An Indiana pastor accused of child molestation and his doting wife were both arrested this week.

72-year-old Garry Evans is, er, was the pastor of the Rushville Baptist Temple in Rushville, Indiana where he regularly preached about the evils of homosexuality for nearly three decades.

Last October, he was arrested after several girls from his church, all under the age of 10, told their parents he had lured them into his office with candy then touched them inappropriately. Evans made bond as was released from custody.

Ok, so this guy who preached for 30 years that gay people are evil was arrested for luring children under 10 years of age with candy to touch them inappropriately.  This is what these pastors say about gay people and why we are so evil, but he’s the one doing these evil acts.

Well, now, he’s back in jail. This time for trespassing and resisting law enforcement.

Earlier this week, Evans and his wife Gay stormed their son’s property. Apparently he and his parents had a falling out after the sex scandal broke last October.

The Evans circled their son’s yard then banged on the door. When their daughter-in-law told them they “weren’t welcome there,” they refused to leave and remained screaming and yelling on the front porch until the daughter-in-law chased them off with a baseball bat.

Police were called. According to reports, when they intervened, Evans and his wife became “verbally abusive and physically resisted officers.” They were arrested. Gay eventually posted bond and was released, but Garry remains in custody.

This isn’t even where I begin to start wondering what planet I’m on, keep reading.

After getting home, Gay allegedly left her estranged son several threatening voicemails, which her daughter-in-law then shared on Facebook.

“I just got out of jail,” she said in one of the messages. “I hope you’re a very happy, son. Your daddy is in there and he’s probably going to be staying in there. What is wrong with you? You are sick!

Other family members also joined in on the attacks.

“This is insane,” another voicemail from a different family member said. “What the f*ck is wrong with you, you stupid idiot?”

“You’re fine with them arresting your 72-year-old father and 70-year-old mother? Really? Really? Are you that big of a piece of scum?” said a third person in a third voicemail.

A jury trial in the molestation case is scheduled for March 20, 2018.

This is what confuses me. This pastor is molesting children, right? Are you with me? This guys mother basically harasses her son and his wife, then she says

“I just got out of jail,” she said in one of the messages. “I hope you’re a very happy, son. Your daddy is in there and he’s probably going to be staying in there. What is wrong with you? You are sick!

She tells her son HE is sick? Her husband was molesting children, and she was a freaking part of it, and she’s calling her son sick? Am I living in the Twilight Zone?

And the family members are calling the son and leaving messages saying things like:

“This is insane,” another voicemail from a different family member said. “What the f*ck is wrong with you, you stupid idiot?”

“You’re fine with them arresting your 72-year-old father and 70-year-old mother? Really? Really? Are you that big of a piece of scum?” said a third person in a third voicemail.

This is where I start cursing, so if you are easily offended, close the blog now.

WHAT THE FUCK! What in the actual fuck am I reading? These family members are chewing out the son who did nothing by the way. His fucking father is diddling little girls, and they are calling the son sick and insane and saying what the fuck is wrong with you? They should be focusing their anger on the guy who was molesting children, not the son, who I will repeat, DID NOTHING WRONG!

Stop the Earth, I want to get off. I’m done. I’m so sick of people.

New HP Printer and Dell Desktop Computer

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Well it has certainly been an interesting month for me and my computer. First my Kodak printer stopped working, then my computer.

So this is how it all started. My Kodak printer wouldn’t print anything. I found out the hard way that the only way to print was to start a print job, then reboot the computer. When Windows began to load, I would type in my Microsoft password and then my printer would immediately begin to print. You shouldn’t have to go through that just to print something. I don’t know if it was a software or hardware issue, but eventually it just wouldn’t print at all. I don’t get a lot of orders through my Etsy shop, and naturally someone bought a knitted hat, and there was nothing I could do, so I had to bring it to the post office to mail. It ended up costing more to ship at the post office than it normally would by printing a shipping label from the Etsy website. I also had to buy a bigger envelope, which I didn’t take into consideration when I created the listing. Lessons!

I bitched and complained about the lack of a printer, and my partner decided he was sick of hearing about it and he actually thought I was hinting around that this was what I wanted for Christmas, so he bought me a new printer a few days before Christmas at Office Depot. It’s a HP OfficeJet 6869. My partner also wanted to buy me ink so I wouldn’t have to buy more ink just in case I printed a lot of stuff and they didn’t put a bunch of ink in the box, and I believe the new ink was $76 give or take. When we got it home I discovered I could get their ink service for only $5 a month and I can print 100 pages every month and they automatically mail me more ink when my printer tells them I’m running low. I guess after 10 pages my printer told them I needed more ink, so I have a box of ink sitting next to the new printer so I have it on hand when I need it. Awesome. Oh, we returned the ink that my partner bought. No need to keep it if I get ink directly from HP.

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I was sitting on my bed playing Destiny 2 one night about a week ago when I noticed my computer had rebooted on its own. I looked over and saw the Windows logo on the screen, and I thought OK, no big deal, just a Windows update. I ignored it and continued playing my video game. After an hour I looked at my monitor again and it was still the same Windows logo screen, no change. I thought it was a little odd, so I hit the reset button, which didn’t do anything, the Windows logo appeared again, and nothing else happened for a couple of hours. I pressed and held the power button until it switched off, then I pushed the power button again to turn it back on. It loaded a screen telling me it was repairing Windows, so I let it do that, well, I didn’t have a choice in the matter. Once it loaded Windows, and I entered my password, I thought it was finished, so I went back to my game only to look at my computer monitor to see the Windows logo on my screen… AGAIN! I thought OK, it has to update, perhaps it really needs to update and because my computer is slow, maybe it will take a long time.

I let it sit there for 24 hours and thought if it doesn’t work then I guess I need a new hard drive. We went to Office Depot and I brought the manual for my motherboard and I printed all the specs out for my computer and I handed those to a sales person and asked him if a new hard drive would be compatible with these specs. He went to the back of the store and came back about 5 minutes later telling me any hard drive will work. He brought me over to the hard drives and I saw they had a Sata 1TB hard drive, so I said OK, I’ll take that one. Then I noticed they had 2TB for $14 more and thought well I might as well get that one. So I asked for the 2TB one and he brought it out. I bought it, we came home and I went to install it, only to discover it didn’t come with a Sata cable, and I didn’t have one, so we went back, and apparently they don’t sell those, so I had to go to The Computer Depot. I bought it for $7. Came home, plugged it in and my screen wouldn’t even turn on… UGH!

We went BACK to Office Depot with the hard drive and I decided screw trying to start over with a new hard drive and trying to continue using 8 year old computer parts, I’ll just buy a new computer, and so I did. I bought a Dell Inspiron 3668 for $479. They credited the hard drive and my partner put $100 towards it, plus he bought me a new wireless Logitech MK520 keyboard and mouse set, which I am typing with now, it’s extremely difficult to type on because my fingers keep falling off the keys and my wrists keep falling off the place where your wrists rest when typing. Although, only my left wrist is resting, my right wrist has learned to hover.

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So after I got my new computer, I realized I didn’t have the VGA cable for my monitor. UGH! What else could go wrong? We had already made 3 trips to Office Depot, and I figured it’s late, it has a HDMI, so I can just plug it into my TV for now, we can get the VGA cable tomorrow, which we did.

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When I bought the new Dell Inspiron Desktop from Office Depot I asked them if they had hard drive enclosures so I could get my files from my old hard drive, and of course they didn’t sell those, naturally. We went back to The Computer Depot the next day for the VGA cable, and I asked them about the hard drive enclosure and they had them for Sata only, mine was IDE, so I decided to buy a new one on Amazon for $27 with free shipping. I got it early, thank goodness. It worked, I got all my files back and we all lived happily ever after…  I hope…

Video Editing

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So this vlogging thing has been quite the experience, and I am learning so much from the editing perspective.

Let me just say that I absolutely hate my face lol. I know that’s a horrible thing to say, but it’s true. I hate the way I look because the right side of my face near my ear is sunken in and the left side of my face near my ear is bulging out. The reason is, as I’ve mentioned a couple times in my videos is that I had a calcium deposit stone in my Parotid gland, aka the saliva gland, and they had to do a Parotidectomy surgery to remove the entire gland to be able to get rid of the stone. The left side is bulging out because there is a stone in the left one now. I mention this because when I have to edit my video, I obviously have to look at my own face for the length of the video and I cringe lol.

Ok, now getting back to the editing part. I am learning so much about the editing process. First I was using Windows movie maker to edit my videos, and then I discovered Wondershare Video Editor, which is a great program with one huge downside. My computer is so old and so slow that when I watch the video to do the edit, the video plays at half the speed and it sounds horrible. For me to edit the words I say, I have to use Windows Movie Maker, then I import the videos into Wondershare to add the transitions and to add the outro image with my like and subscribe icons as well as the social media icons.

Up until now, the videos have looked pixelated because I was letting it shrink the video down to 1280×720. The videos looked horrible, so because I wanted a better looking video, I was editing them with Windows Movie Maker for awhile, and then I stopped making videos because it was hot, but also because I’m terrible at editing.

So I just decided to start using a different method when editing video because I want the video to have better quality, so I changed it from the way I’ve been doing it which was a recommended way for YouTube to “video for PS3.” They don’t have video for PS4 for some reason, but these are the new specs for my most recent video.

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I think I remember why I was using the video for YouTube method before. It would probably take maybe 10 minutes to render a 10 minute video. This video was 26 minutes and 4 seconds, and it took the entire night to render. I started it at probably 2am and I woke up at 8am and it was still going. I went back to sleep and woke up just less than 2 hours later and it was STILL going. I think it finished at 11:30am.

Even though I don’t like that it took such a long time to render a 26 minute video, I would much rather allow it to take almost 10 hours to render if it’s great quality. I’m not quite sure I would say it was great quality because it still seemed a bit off, but it is what it is. So my videos will look better from now on. Now if I can only learn how to add funny sounds and silly movie clips and have more energy. I need some go-go juice.

Check out my latest video.

New Etsy Shop Products Coming

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I have some news about my Etsy shop that I thought I would share. I haven’t started producing any new products, but new products are in the works. You see, I have learned a new skill and I will be learning another new skill that I will be using to make some new products. Believe it or not, one product requires 2 different crafting skills.

Ok, so here is the product, I won’t beat around the bush. I’m terrible at keeping secrets lol. I mean, I put an image above. Can’t you see that?

Baseball caps, or hats, with embroidery on the front. I know it’s not a new concept, but it’s not going to be anything you can buy in stores because it will be unique with cloth that I find at a craft store like Beverly’s here in Bakersfield, or Joann. I will also have embroidery designs that go with the fabric, so it’s not like it’s going to be like you can choose this fabric with this embroidery design. I could promise that, but I honestly don’t know how long it would take for a custom hat, so for now it will only be what I decide to make to list.

I will make 1 hat to see if anyone is interested. I will buy a hat from a thrift store so I can deconstruct it so I can trace the pattern of the hat onto plastic sheets so I will have a template, then I will remove the plastic brim and I will use that plastic brim for the first hat. I’m not going to use cardboard brims because then you might as well call it a disposable hat. I will have to find a inexpensive merchant to buy the plastic brims from. I found some on Etsy, but they aren’t cheap, and that would drive up the price of the hat. I don’t want to have to charge a lot of money for these hats, so I will keep looking for good quality plastic brims from a provider in the US so I don’t have to wait a month for it to come from China.

Anyway, tell me how that sounds to you and how much you would be willing to pay for a handmade baseball type of cap with embroidery either in the front or all around the hat/cap. I’m thinking $15 to $20, of course that all depends on how much money I have to spend on materials. I’m guessing the materials will be cheap, but I don’t know that for sure. I know Beverly’s has some inexpensive fabric, but what if I hate all that they have and have to buy the regular priced fabric.

Well, I will find out when I start buying materials soon. So keep an eye out because if and when I make a test hat, I will blog about it. I will also probably vlog about it and put it on my YouTube channel as well, so stay tuned.

Crocheted C2C Graphic and on Etsy

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I have these wonderful crocheted graphigan blankets ready to make, if you can wait 4-6 weeks for delivery. I brought the price of the blankets down as well as the price of shipping. I’ve already made a Betty Boop blanket and it came out beautifully and it gave me the experience I needed to make and sell them on Etsy.

DC & Marvel – https://www.etsy.com/listing/494818922/handmade-dc-marvel-character-queen-size

Disney – https://www.etsy.com/listing/495024252/handmade-disney-character-queen-size

Christian Praying Hands – https://www.etsy.com/listing/495024918/handmade-christian-queen-size-crocheted

Trailer, Rainbow Heart and Betty Boop – https://www.etsy.com/listing/495173314/handmade-trailer-rainbow-heart-betty

YouTube

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So… have you been watching my YouTube videos? What? You didn’t know I was on YouTube? Well, better late than never, eh? Check me out. http://www.YouTube.com/DiaryofaGayNerd.  I’m a sensation! Ok, so I’m not a YouTube sensation, but I’m working on it lol.

I think as with anything, my personality is shy in the beginning, then I start coming out of my candy coated shell until eventually I’m singing and dancing with a lampshade on my head. I haven’t gotten to that point yet, but I’m much more comfortable on camera, and I’m not even editing anymore. When I say editing, I mean editing out the parts where I start whining how I can’t do this and how I can’t think straight. Now I can literally talk for 20 minutes until I realize OMG I’ve been talking nonstop for 20 minutes! My first few dozen videos were about 10 minutes or less, now I’m like crap it’s going too long lol.

So check me out when you get the chance and see my personality in action. No, really, I need the views, likes and subs lol. PLEASE check me out lol.

Wondershare Video Editing Software

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As a new vlogger, I feel like if I don’t have good editing and effects for my videos, perhaps no one will take me seriously on YouTube. I actually don’t expect anyone to take me seriously. Here’s my philosophy, expect the worst, but hope for the best. That’s just the way my life has always been for me. When I was expecting the best, I ended up in a shit storm, so I figure why bother expecting anything good to happen. If good happens, then yay.

So today I was editing this video of our friend Audrey Chavez at Martin’s Meats and I thought to myself, I cannot edit this video without being able to add pictures to the screen. It wouldn’t be right to not show in an image with picture in picture what she was talking about. I also don’t have any way to add a like and subscribe icon, icons of social media and add a video in the screen at the same time. The only way I can do that is with picture in picture. I bought a program that I really wanted on Steam, but it wouldn’t install, so luckily Steam gave me a refund. I ended up buying Wondershare Video Editor from Amazon for only $39.99 as a digital download. I actually downloaded Wondershare’s newest editing software, but my computer is so slow, that I couldn’t watch the video I was editing, I needed an older software.

Wondershare Video Editor is just what I was looking for. It’s easy enough for me to use and it allows 3 pictures in picture. I was able to have the video of Audrey talking and I had a picture on her left and her right. That’s exactly what I needed. Microsoft’s free editor didn’t have picture in picture and other programs that I tried that did have a picture in picture feature didn’t give you the option of having more than 1 image. I was also able to resize the image, and maintain it’s aspect and move it around the screen to the perfect spot. The only thing I could not do was type text. It has a text feature, I just haven’t figured that out yet lol.

I still have much more to learn, but at least I have an idea of what I’m doing so I can edit better looking videos for YouTube. I even bought 20 more mini DVD-r’s so I could continue vlogging for as long as I want. I can do 2 to 3 vlogs per disc. The only problem is the quality of the video. My DVD Camcorder is grainy. I would love a new camera, but that’s in the future.

Vlogging on YouTube

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I have wanted to start vlogging for years, but I’ve always been so camera shy. It seems like when it comes to typing what I have to say, I have a lot to say, but when I’m sitting in front of a camera, suddenly my brain turns to mush. I stutter and stammer and I might get a full sentence out, but then I realize how dumb I sound, so I stop talking and figure I’ll just edit that out, so then I start over, but some how the words never come out and I hit the stop button and delete the entire video.

You know how when you are watching YouTube, then suddenly you come across a video and you have to turn the volume up all the way, and you can still just barely hear the person? That’s my phone’s issue. I go to record and when I listen to the recording, I can barely hear myself. I tried recording my voice while playing a game on my PS4 using my PS4 camera’s mic, but when I listened to it, I couldn’t even hear myself. It was barely a whisper.

My phone’s mic volume sucks, except for when I’m on the phone with someone. No one has ever complained about not being able to hear me, but as soon as I try to record myself,  I can’t hear myself.

I tried a sound check with my Hitachi DVD-Camcorder, and the volume is ok, but I have nothing but problems uploading the videos to the computer when I record with the DVD-Ram. I did put an old mini DVD-r into the DVD drive on my computer and I had no problems picking out clips, but in order for me to work with the Hitachi DVD-Cam, I’ll have to use a DVD-r to record, then finalize the disc, then I can upload the files to my computer. The DVD-r’s are 30 minutes, so I will have to record a few vlogs per disc. I’m not going to do 1 vlog, then waste the rest of the 20 minutes or so I have left on the disc. I don’t want to have to go through that because those mini DVD’s are about a buck a piece.

I bought a mic on Amazon recently for my phone, and it arrived, but it didn’t work at all on my phone, and it didn’t work at all on my DVD-Camcorder. I still have my old Samsung Galaxy SIII, and the mic worked on that phone, no problem. I did a test video with audio and video on that phone, but when I tried to load the video to my computer, I got an error message.

So far I have a mic that doesn’t  work on anything but a phone I don’t even use anymore. I can’t upload vlogs from my Hitachi DVD-Camcorder using a DVD-ram disc because I won’t be able to upload them to the computer. My new phone’s volume sucks… I can’t afford a new camcorder, and I really wanted to Vlog, so screw it, I started vlogging with my Hitachi DVD Camcorder.

The first vlog was bad, in the beginning, but I kept going until it was over. It was like ripping a bandaid, but I did it. I think I recorded 9 minutes, but with all the edits I ended up with 6 1/2 minutes. That’s ok. My 2nd vlog was a lot easier, but I had a moment in the beginning where I said I can’t do this, but then just kept going. I had 1 or 2 edits in the beginning of the 2nd one, but then I didn’t have to edit anything else until the very end. The 3rd vlog on that first DVD-r had a lot more edits, but I think I did good, and I was much more relaxed by the time I was on the 3rd vlog.

So far I have 3 vlogs posted on my new YouTube page which is at www.YouTube.com/DiaryofaGayNerd. If you are reading this, PLEASE visit my vlog and watch my videos, and if you like them please hit like and subscribe. I edit them during the day, then I publish them at or just before midnight Pacific time, and I will be doing this every night.

The mini DVD-r discs hold 30 minutes, so I can record 3 10 minute vlogs or 2 15 minute vlogs. Today we went to Martin’s Meats and Deli in Bakersfield and I sat at a table with Audrey Chavez about her suspended sandwiches and Bakersfield AIDS Project. I told her it would only be a few minutes, 5 at most, and it ended up being around 15 minutes lol. Ooops. I felt like a reporter lol. But my main goal was to show America what a wonderful person Audrey Chavez is. I’m also going to send the link to that video to the Ellen DeGeneres show. I think Ellen should know about Audrey.

I only had 4 blank DVD-r’s, and I’ve already used 3, so I have 1 left which I will most likely record on when my partner goes to church on Sunday. I was told the best time to vlog is when there are either no people in the house, or wait for everyone to fall asleep. My partner sleeps like a cat, so all I can do is wait for him to leave the house, then I can vlog. I have 4 more videos waiting to be edited, and I have a list of 4 more ideas for vlogs. I’ll probably check 3 of those off on Sunday. I also bought 20 more DVD-r’s for future videos.

The only thing that I hate about my vlog is that I have to do it on my bed because that’s the only spot I feel comfortable vlogging from. I would love if I had a sound proof room with a desk and a professional mic where I can feel free to vlog without feeling like someone can hear me, and they have their ear on the door lol. I would also love to have a desk to sit at, like my desk for example lol. It needs to be straightened before I can do that, so maybe I will focus on that this weekend. I also don’t like the image on the screen. It feels like the video is washed out or something. Perhaps one of these days I will have a better set up so I look more professional, like these pro’s I watch every day. GOALS!

So until that happens, I will just have to make lemonade  with the lemons life has dealt me.

YouTube Channel

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I’ve had a YouTube channel for years under the name Xanapus, and I wanted to start vlogging because I want to advertise my book a bit more than just with Twitter and Facebook. YouTube would give me another audience. I created a second YouTube channel from my Diary of a Gay Nerd Google+ account, and I was surprised the name was even available. Good thing I didn’t wait too long.

My life partner is so paranoid that his conservative Republican born again Christian family members might find out I wrote a book, then actually read it. When I published my book, I was going to advertise it with my other blog on my Xanapus.com website, and he begged me not to, which is why I ended up buying DiaryofaGayNerd.com and started the blogging all over. I also had to create a page on Facebook for my book because God forbid they see my book advertised on my personal Facebook profile. I swear that boy (he’s 21 years older than me by the way lol) is going to have a stroke or a heart attack one of these days from the stress if his family ever found out about my book. I’m sure they’d be fine with it and probably wouldn’t even care, but he’s so private, and he just doesn’t want them to read it because the less they know about my life, the better. I think more importantly he thinks I wrote a lot about our life together, and that’s what he’s afraid they will read. I was very vague about our relationship in my book, as per his request, so even if they did read my book, they wouldn’t get that much more information than they already have.

So as you can tell from the screenshot (above) I have an icon and a banner. I have a DVD camcorder that my partner bought for me a little over a decade ago, and it works fine. Not great, just fine. Like I said, it’s old. It would be awesome if I had a DVR camera so I can record to a hard drive in the camera, then I can upload the videos with ease. It took me an hour just to do a sound and video check. I uploaded the video to my computer using a program that came with my camcorder called Image Mixer 3, and after 5 failed attempts, I figured out it’s not the camera, it’s not Image Mixer 3, but it’s Windows Movie Maker. I add or import the video and it renders it, but all I get is sound, no image. I watched the video and it played just fine on the media player, it just refused to show me the images in Movie Maker.

Another problem for me is lighting and sound. I added a wired mic that I can put under my shirt and just clip it to my collar, and I added a camcorder light and software to a wish list called YouTube on Amazon. I would love to start vlogging sooner than later, and I can buy the mic and light soon, but those don’t do me any good if I don’t have the software to edit the video. Perhaps I can use the editor on the YouTube website, but I don’t know how that works since I haven’t tried it yet. Maybe I’ll just record something, then upload it and mark it as private, then see if I can edit it through the website.

My next problem is my face lol. Here’s the thing. I know people see me when I’m outside, and I don’t have a problem with them looking at me, mainly because I don’t see myself outside, I only see them, so it doesn’t bother me. But when I can see my face on the screen while I’m filming, it freaks me out and I start getting nervous about recording. Obviously I have to be able to see myself to make sure I’m in frame, but I just don’t want to see myself lol. I wish I could just record myself without actually having to see myself, but then when I go to edit, I have to look at myself… again lol. And my voice! UGH! I hear myself every time I talk, but the voice I hear when I talk is a different voice I hear on recordings. It’s way different. I think I’m more ok with my voice than I am my face, and I know I have to get over that if I want to record video.

The final problem I have is being on video alone. I live with someone who also hates being on video. Heck, he hates having his picture taken. I’m surprisingly ok with having my picture taken lol. I think that if I were to record a video of myself with someone else in the video, then perhaps I won’t stutter and stammer so much. I talk on the phone with people with no problems, so you would think if I can chat on the phone with no problem, then I can chat in a video with someone with no problem.

I am ready and willing to start vlogging, I just need the mic and the light. If I can edit within YouTube, then I will worry about the software another time, but if YouTube editing doesn’t work out, then I will need to get something affordable. I want to get this thing started because the sooner I start vlogging, the sooner I will get over my fears and then I can start advertising and reading excerpts of my book on YouTube.

Of course I would appreciate any advice anyone can give to me. The camera I have is a Hitachi DVD Cam GX3100A. I am using a DVD Ram disc to record video, then I have to use ImageMixer 3 to upload the video files to my computer. My computer specs:

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I am also looking into getting a animated intro. I might have to go to Fiver for that, but if you can help me, please let me know. Any advice would be awesome. I’m poor, so I can’t get started if I can’t afford to buy the things I need.

UPDATE: I have a pair of headphones with a mic attached to it, so I thought I wonder… I didn’t use my DVD Camcorder, instead I used my phone to do a sound check with the headset, and unfortunately that didn’t work out. I could barely hear my voice with my mic a decent length from my mouth. When I had the mic practically next to my mouth, I could hear, but it wasn’t loud enough. You know, when I watch YouTube, which is every day on my TV using my PS4, if I come across a video where I have to turn the volume all the way up to 100 and I can still barely hear their voice, I move on to the next video. So I just want to make sure people can hear me without having to turn the volume all the way up. If they can’t hear me, why in the world would they care what I have to say? The lighting issue is one thing, I can vlog in the morning when the sun comes up and I can go in the back yard to do it. No problem, but if they can’t hear me, then there really isn’t a point in doing it.