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So… have you been watching my YouTube videos? What? You didn’t know I was on YouTube? Well, better late than never, eh? Check me out. http://www.YouTube.com/DiaryofaGayNerd.  I’m a sensation! Ok, so I’m not a YouTube sensation, but I’m working on it lol.

I think as with anything, my personality is shy in the beginning, then I start coming out of my candy coated shell until eventually I’m singing and dancing with a lampshade on my head. I haven’t gotten to that point yet, but I’m much more comfortable on camera, and I’m not even editing anymore. When I say editing, I mean editing out the parts where I start whining how I can’t do this and how I can’t think straight. Now I can literally talk for 20 minutes until I realize OMG I’ve been talking nonstop for 20 minutes! My first few dozen videos were about 10 minutes or less, now I’m like crap it’s going too long lol.

So check me out when you get the chance and see my personality in action. No, really, I need the views, likes and subs lol. PLEASE check me out lol.

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I’ve had a YouTube channel for years under the name Xanapus, and I wanted to start vlogging because I want to advertise my book a bit more than just with Twitter and Facebook. YouTube would give me another audience. I created a second YouTube channel from my Diary of a Gay Nerd Google+ account, and I was surprised the name was even available. Good thing I didn’t wait too long.

My life partner is so paranoid that his conservative Republican born again Christian family members might find out I wrote a book, then actually read it. When I published my book, I was going to advertise it with my other blog on my Xanapus.com website, and he begged me not to, which is why I ended up buying DiaryofaGayNerd.com and started the blogging all over. I also had to create a page on Facebook for my book because God forbid they see my book advertised on my personal Facebook profile. I swear that boy (he’s 21 years older than me by the way lol) is going to have a stroke or a heart attack one of these days from the stress if his family ever found out about my book. I’m sure they’d be fine with it and probably wouldn’t even care, but he’s so private, and he just doesn’t want them to read it because the less they know about my life, the better. I think more importantly he thinks I wrote a lot about our life together, and that’s what he’s afraid they will read. I was very vague about our relationship in my book, as per his request, so even if they did read my book, they wouldn’t get that much more information than they already have.

So as you can tell from the screenshot (above) I have an icon and a banner. I have a DVD camcorder that my partner bought for me a little over a decade ago, and it works fine. Not great, just fine. Like I said, it’s old. It would be awesome if I had a DVR camera so I can record to a hard drive in the camera, then I can upload the videos with ease. It took me an hour just to do a sound and video check. I uploaded the video to my computer using a program that came with my camcorder called Image Mixer 3, and after 5 failed attempts, I figured out it’s not the camera, it’s not Image Mixer 3, but it’s Windows Movie Maker. I add or import the video and it renders it, but all I get is sound, no image. I watched the video and it played just fine on the media player, it just refused to show me the images in Movie Maker.

Another problem for me is lighting and sound. I added a wired mic that I can put under my shirt and just clip it to my collar, and I added a camcorder light and software to a wish list called YouTube on Amazon. I would love to start vlogging sooner than later, and I can buy the mic and light soon, but those don’t do me any good if I don’t have the software to edit the video. Perhaps I can use the editor on the YouTube website, but I don’t know how that works since I haven’t tried it yet. Maybe I’ll just record something, then upload it and mark it as private, then see if I can edit it through the website.

My next problem is my face lol. Here’s the thing. I know people see me when I’m outside, and I don’t have a problem with them looking at me, mainly because I don’t see myself outside, I only see them, so it doesn’t bother me. But when I can see my face on the screen while I’m filming, it freaks me out and I start getting nervous about recording. Obviously I have to be able to see myself to make sure I’m in frame, but I just don’t want to see myself lol. I wish I could just record myself without actually having to see myself, but then when I go to edit, I have to look at myself… again lol. And my voice! UGH! I hear myself every time I talk, but the voice I hear when I talk is a different voice I hear on recordings. It’s way different. I think I’m more ok with my voice than I am my face, and I know I have to get over that if I want to record video.

The final problem I have is being on video alone. I live with someone who also hates being on video. Heck, he hates having his picture taken. I’m surprisingly ok with having my picture taken lol. I think that if I were to record a video of myself with someone else in the video, then perhaps I won’t stutter and stammer so much. I talk on the phone with people with no problems, so you would think if I can chat on the phone with no problem, then I can chat in a video with someone with no problem.

I am ready and willing to start vlogging, I just need the mic and the light. If I can edit within YouTube, then I will worry about the software another time, but if YouTube editing doesn’t work out, then I will need to get something affordable. I want to get this thing started because the sooner I start vlogging, the sooner I will get over my fears and then I can start advertising and reading excerpts of my book on YouTube.

Of course I would appreciate any advice anyone can give to me. The camera I have is a Hitachi DVD Cam GX3100A. I am using a DVD Ram disc to record video, then I have to use ImageMixer 3 to upload the video files to my computer. My computer specs:

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I am also looking into getting a animated intro. I might have to go to Fiver for that, but if you can help me, please let me know. Any advice would be awesome. I’m poor, so I can’t get started if I can’t afford to buy the things I need.

UPDATE: I have a pair of headphones with a mic attached to it, so I thought I wonder… I didn’t use my DVD Camcorder, instead I used my phone to do a sound check with the headset, and unfortunately that didn’t work out. I could barely hear my voice with my mic a decent length from my mouth. When I had the mic practically next to my mouth, I could hear, but it wasn’t loud enough. You know, when I watch YouTube, which is every day on my TV using my PS4, if I come across a video where I have to turn the volume all the way up to 100 and I can still barely hear their voice, I move on to the next video. So I just want to make sure people can hear me without having to turn the volume all the way up. If they can’t hear me, why in the world would they care what I have to say? The lighting issue is one thing, I can vlog in the morning when the sun comes up and I can go in the back yard to do it. No problem, but if they can’t hear me, then there really isn’t a point in doing it.